Words of Wisdom

So, I'm back here again, for a little chat. =] I'm listening to this song, and it's kinda a reflection of my mood right now, I'm not trying to steal Emily's buzz. =] Before I actually get onto what I wanted to say, I want to sound wise for a few paragraphs.

You know how sometimes you wonder what type of person you really are? Or if you've changed? Well, I do. All the time. Looking in the mirror, I'm not the person I was 5 years ago, or even the person I was last year. And its not only what you look like that makes you think that. Sometimes, it what people say to or about you that gets you thinking. And I've been thinking. For a while. In some ways, I know I've changed for the better, others I feel disgusted with myself. And then, I see the parts of me that haven't changed and I smile. I still dance like crazy to every song that comes on the radio, and sing really loud to my favourite songs, even if they aren't 'cool'. hehe. I still love romance movies, and can cry at a drop of a hat. But I've learnt things as well. I've learnt to not care about what people say about you, I've gained a higher sense of style, if thats even possible and I've learned that trusting people is probably one of the hardest things to do, but is the most treasured thing in the world.

I'm thinking of one particular person at the moment, and I won't say who, but their trust in me is treasured and will be til the day I die. I hope I never let them down. And that goes for everyone else as well.

I know I'm glad that I've changed, I'm glad that I'm not the person I used to be, but I still see things the same and get worried over the same things. I still hate it when people mock what I do because they're jealous, or because they appreciate it and wish they had the drive to do what I do. And, if anyone is interested, I don't do what I do to have people talk about me, I do it because I have dreams that I will achieve, and I can't do that unless I push myself harder than I can handle. And even if you think its too much for me, I know best when it comes to me.

In relation to somthing I read on myspace - somethings are important to different people. If someone thinks that Yr 10 is important, who are you to disagree? Because in the end, those that think its important will go further in the world than you.

So what actually brought on this half rant half whatever?

I read my horoscope. It got me thinking. I read a couple of bulletins on myspace. They got me thinking. I reflected on my experiences this year. Which got me thinking.

In relation to horoscope this is what it says:

"You are wild, over the top and out of control" - Well, I'm definitely over the top. I can even see a few of you nodding your heads as you read that. As for wild and out of control, well, I'm not so sure. But am I? Seriously, what do you think?

"Underneath the flamboyant exterior, you're actually calm, dedicated, hardworking and sensible" - I totally agree with this. I'm calm if everything gets done before its supposed to be done, I'm definitely dedicated and hardworking, and have more than my fair share of being sensible.

"You're extremely loyal, warm and generous" - I feel this one has something to do with what I said earlier. I've changed. And, this is what I've become. Sure, I was warm and generous, but I wasn't loyal. And I've learned my lessons. The hard way. I've learned that being loyal to those important people makes you feel something in the cockles of your heart.

"You can be proud, bossy and a bit of a diva" - I'm definitely proud and always bossy, and a bit more than a bit of a diva. I love my clothes and my shoes and my bags. And sometimes being bossy makes people hate you for a while, but you need to express the real you, rather than hide it away and let people walk all over you.

"A strong believer of love at first sight" - no questions. I'm in love with love at first sight. I'm a true romantic.

So, I know this may seem like its directed at certain people, but its not. Its just the easiest way for me to . . . be me.

=]

Have a nice night.


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